A big fat *sigh* to start off my blog for this day! It's only the middle of January, and I feel like I'm already in a rut. Last week was a big fat blur of things and I just don't feel like myself. I know that the good 'ole monthly visitor that arrived yesterday has a big impact on my feelings. But I still don't like the feelings. The sadness, the crying, the moodiness....JUST QUIT IT!!!! I've been feeling very worried and full of doubts about me and my running of the 1/2 marathon. Why?!!! When my mind was so dead set on doing it. And everybody keeps telling me that I CAN do it. Is it because I lack self confidence? Every morning I get a quote from "Runners World" and this morning it was by Eleanor Roosevelt..."You must do the thing which you think you cannot do" LOVE IT!!!! So fits what I've been feeling lately. Even though the doubts are buzzing around in my head, in my heartest of hearts, I do know that I CAN and WILL do it.
I also feel like this past week I've lived with too many "should'ves"....I should've called this person, I should've talked to him nicer, I should've given them one more kiss. I don't like living a life full of should'ves. I want a life of I DID's. I did call this person, I did treat him with respect, and I DID give them EXTRA KISSES!!! Just....because. Because I don't want to be that person. I want to be me...and somewhere in the last week, I've lost the big M and big E in ME. But, I'm putting her back together again...and she will succeed.
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Wow. I'm not sure what's happened, but recognizing what and who you want to be is a powerful step. Hope you feel better.
Life can get hard at times. I feel like I have alot of "in the rut" moments too. I think that "min" is right though...it is good that you recognize it. Because of that you can and are working to change the things that you don't like. Good luck, and just keep trying!
you can do it! just start from today and don't worry about yesterday's should haves. that half marathon will be great for you because it is a measurable goal. you can see your progress and see how little by little you accomplished something big. and i think we all feel like this sometimes.
I think it is awesome you are even considering running. Me on the other hand i get winded just dreaming, maybe someday. Hey post your email address so I can send you invite to my blog.
Julie! how fun you found me...i'd love to see your blog!
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we are have our bad weeks. but without the hard times there wouldn't be good times! that's life! keep up the running....you will do great!
i meant to say we all...not we are...woops!
Niss, I have had many blah days, we all do. You CAN do anything you want to.
man I am sorry you are in a rut. I wish I had some marvelous words of wisdom to help you. Things will get better though, they always do.
Wow, we are alot alike...I hope you don't take offense to that!!! Anyways, I feel the same...always thinking about what I should do/should've done...never about the good things I do. I envy that you can even run...I maxed about 2 miles a night for a few months, now it's like 2 blocks of walking. LOL! You can do, just keep reminding yourself that. And so crazy about the "teeth episode"! She has a cute little toothless grin though!
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