Just words..thoughts...ramblings....

It's late...yes, after 10pm is late for me!!! I was laying in bed, and there was just too many thoughts going through my head...I needed to jot some down. So, just as a forewarning, this post may not be the most exciting, but it's just thoughts and feelings that I'm having right now, and this is my blog dangit! So I can write about whatever the hell I want!!! :)

Anyway...today wasn't that great of a day...well, shoot, let's just say it was a BAD day in my book. Believe me, just ask my poor kids and hubby. It's always a particular bad day, when you've made your sweet 8 year old daughter cry...what kind of mother does that??? Holy sheesh...somebody needs to take over in this household!!! Either that, or this mom needs to get her big prego butt in gear and get over a few things. Maybe it's the pregnancy hormones, or maybe it's just the CHATWIN temper that I'm dealing with...who knows...but I don't feel like I can blame it on anything...because in all actuality, it's my choice. So I vow to give my cute kids extra hugs and kisses tomorrow morning before they head off to school, and I will ask them to forgive me...and tomorrow will be a better day...a fun day...and they will KNOW how much their mommy loves them....

My wonderful parents are coming to our house for a big halloween par-tay tomorrow. Okay, maybe not a big party....but they are coming and having a sleepover!!! I'm making homemade wheat pizza...we'll hang out in our little cul-de-sac and hand out candy...the "men folk" can take the kids around the neighborhood to load up on all the sugar they can get their hands on!! Cutie Nathan will be setting up the tent in the backyard for a campout!!! (mom, walker and I will most likely be sleeping INSIDE...I have a hard enough time getting sleep in my own bed!) Saturday morning, dear ol' grandpa will be taking the girls for a hike (Nathan will be joining, if he's not working) and grandma will be teaching ME how to make my own tortilla's! (very excited for this!) It's also time for me to make some more bread! Wahoo!!!

Why is it that babies, well atleast all of mine...like to move around the most when it's night time...time for us to be sleeping???!!!! It really cracks me up actually...because every single one of mine has been that way! It amazes me, how even after having 3 kids in this tummy of mine already, that I am still in awe at the feelings of having a little person inside of me. When she moves it makes me feel good inside....and it's like it was my first time being pregnant! I guess it's a miracle regardless of how many times you've had children. Although it's been an adjustment for me, to call this babe a SHE instead of a HE....and I've had to think through a lot of things since finding out...I love her. Why wouldn't I? She is a part of me, she is a part of Nathan...she is a part of our family...and she chose ME as her mom. Regardless of how horrible of a mother I think I am at times...she still chose me...and that really fills my heart with inexplicable joy. I can't wait to see her....and I know my children feel the same way. My sweet girls STILL pray every night that mommy will "feel better". I guess they figure that since I'm still pregnant, I won't "feel better" until after she is actually here! But it makes me smile, every time I hear them say that....it makes me feel special, because they remember me in their prayers. I think we have settled on a name for this cute girl...but I'm not certain, so I won't spill the beans to everyone yet!

Well.....

We can no longer call the babe growing in my belly a "he"....because to our complete shock (mainly myself)....it's....a.....

GIRL!!!!!!

The Farm!

Once again, Abby chose going to Schnepf Farms over getting presents this year! We had a great time with our cousins! And of course, their favorite part was the roller coaster!!!

All of the kids together
Grandpa Dale even came out for a while to join us! It was so great to have him there!
The three munchkins! Thanks for coming Bethany!!!

We've loved having you with us 3 years in a row!!!!

On the "spooky" train ride!!!
Cousin Keala helping the Walker-Man with his marshmellow. Which he never actually ate!!! He just held it in his hand and licked it!!! It was the funniest thing!!!

In other news....I had my midwife appointment today and everything is looking good! We got to hear the heartbeat this time, the babe was actually cooperating! yay! Even though I thought that my weight gain was gonna be about 3 pounds, it ended up being only 1!!!! So, my pregnancy weight gain to date is a whopping 2.6 pounds! I'm eating, really I am...and even MORE then I usually do! And at night even, before bedtime!!!! Ah well. I call to make my ultrasound apointment tomorrow...so will keep everyone posted as to if we actually take the plunge and find out what the baby is!!!

Stuff

I have the cutest video of Walker singing "you are my sunshine" but I can't figure out how to download it! I'm totally bummed, hopefully I can figure it out soon!!!
My hubby hasn't seen me in make-up and with my hair done in....hmmm....DAYS!!!!
I'm thinking he might be okay with this look....(although my nose is a little crooked don't ya think??!!! haha)
In the world of pregnancies...The time has come once again...This is how my pants are now held together. My daughters hair rubber bands! yahoo!!!

I am a 5 whole months this SaTuRdAy!! So, I guess I've kind of hit the half way point! I see my midwife this Tuesday so we'll see how I've done in the "weight gaining" area!!! I feel like I've gained...mostly in the butt (that CAN'T be good). I am feeling the little guy move around a lot! So that makes me happy. No decision yet on if we're gonna find out what the little babe is...perhaps a discussion with the midwife about a possible ultrasound???!!!!

Saturday's

May your tubs be as filthy as mine after baths...

Happy Saturday!!!!

All About Abby

Abby lost her first tooth last Friday! yay!!!

AND our little kindergartener....received the "CITIZENSHIP" Student of the Month at school. Which means she is very citizenship-y!!! hahahaha....She treats others with respect, helps others, all that jazz. It is a very COVETED award at the old Ben Franklin school!!!
When she first got up there, she had the BIGGEST grin on her face, it was adorable (didn't get a picture of course!) But all the parents were laughing and saying how cute she was...yep, you know it!! hahahaha

Her adoring fans!!!

LoVe this picture!!!
Way to go Abby!!! We are proud of you!!!!

What's Happening....

To me, my dear Rebekkah has changed so much in the last year....I had to look at last years school picture, compared to this years....(Abby won't get her picture until tomorrow, I'll have to do the same thing with hers when I get it!) She just looks so much more mature, grown up...sniff, sniff

3rd Grade

2nd Grade

Hmmmmm...who's watching this kid???!!!!!

And in pregnancy news...mommy is feeling MUCH better...especially since I started eating more!!! I met with my midwife last week and we talked about A LOT of stuff...mainly my yuckiness and my dizzy spells I've been having. I was instructed to EAT MORE...and I discovered by eating something between 8 and 9pm...my mornings are then a LOT better and I haven't been having any dizzy spells! yay!!! It's been a little hard on my "mind" to realize that it's okay to eat so late...but if it's going to make things easier on my body AND the baby, then I've gotta do it.
Despite what many might think...my tummy IS Getting bigger and I felt the baby move for the first time last Saturday!!! My weight gain to date: 1.5 pounds!! (Not really enough considering I'm in my 4th month...hence, the eating more thing again!!!) In other good news, I spoke with my midwife about breastfeeding and she said that just because it hasn't worked for me in the past, doesn't mean I won't get the milk in this time! I'm so happy...because it's what I REALLY want to do...so I'm reading a TON of books and looking forward to much milk supply to come! I want to give this baby the BEST possible options out there, and breastmilk is the only way! So, I hope that it will work out for me and the little one.

Also, for those who have asked when we are going to find out what the "baby" is...I don't know!! We don't know for sure if we ARE going to find out....but will keep you posted if we end up having the ultrasound!!!