I guess I should "elaborate" a little bit more on my previous post. I have very many emotions going through me right now about the whole thing so just bare with me....I am 9 weeks along and due sometime the beginning of March. About 6 months ago, I knew there was another little baby up there waiting for us, but I was in complete denial. I kept having these thoughts about having another one and just kept them to myself. My cute hubby had been talking about another one right after Walker was born and I just kept telling him NO WAY...even my daughters talked about having another one. I had no desire to have another baby, no desire to be pregnant once again. Yet the thoughts kept coming to me, and I still kept them inside...KNOWING that if I brought it up to my husband... he, of course, would be all for it. I was scared (still am), I was nervous, I was stressed, I was even SELFISH. Selfish? Yes selfish. Why? you might wonder? I didn't want to go through the whole gaining weight pregnancy stuff. I didn't want my body to change AGAIN, especially after I had worked SO HARD to be where I was. I didn't want to change that. Anyway, I obviously at some point talked to Nathan about it, because it was driving me crazy....and just like I knew he would be, he was "up for the challenge" ha!
So, here we are. Pregnant again and I feel kind of numb to the whole idea. I AM excited, don't get me wrong...but it has taken me some time to actually get to that point. I am a worry-er, as much as I TRY not to be, I still do. It will be fun to see what this one is, although when I first got the impressions that there was another baby, I had the feelings that it would be a boy, so we shall see. It would be GREAT to have a little brother for Walker-man. But we will see!!!!
It has been a really rough beginning pregnancy for me. Every day I spend on the couch pretty much. I am nautious (i DON'T know how to spell that word) from the time I wake up, until I go to bed at night, AND even during the night time when I'm trying to go to sleep. It is very hard for me, to go from running 5-6 miles a day and strength training to ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. My kids are lucky I can get them off to school in the mornings. I have felt every emotion possible in the last few weeks....being overwhelmed, sad, depressed....it is not easy for me to be laid up on the couch, day after day after day. My house never gets cleaned and my poor husband has been "Mr. Mom" around here. I know that at some point, the sickness will pass, but for now it's just really taking a toll on me and my mental view of things. Hopefully, I can start feeling better....sometime in the near future! :)
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I am so sorry you are feeling so sick. I hope it gets better soon! I totally know what you mean about feeling like there is another baby waiting - I too do NOT want another one but that feeling won't go away. I guess we will see what happens!
that was a very sweet post! i feel that way alot. i don't want to be preg.. again! but at the same time i'm dying to be. i'm working way too hard right now to lose it all and gain 60 lbs! even when you're pregnant.. you never stray far from where you've been. so don't worry about that.
but i MUST say.. it's twin girls :)
love ya dave-- wish i lived closer so i could come over and play.. or clean
I have to tell you, I was exactly the same way. You have nothing to feel bad about about. I was (and still am) on a whole bunch of different medications to get the throwing up to stop. I am 14 weeks and I feel better. I pray that it will be the same with you! You are just about 5 weeks behind me;) Good luck and try not to be to hard on yourself, you rock!!
I'm sorry you feel so crummy right now. Your family understands and every woman reading this blog does too.
Oh my GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOSH!!!!!!!!! :)
I am so happy for you guys!!! So sorry that you are feely icky though...It feels like it will NEVER end when you're going through it...But you WILL get through it and before you know it, you will have a sweet little baby in your arms, your body will be back to ROCK HARD and it will all seem like a blink of an eye... So for now, sit on that couch and eat an oreo for me...or something. :) And don't worry about not getting things done (around the house) - You're growing a baby! ...think 'Big picture' thoughts.
I hope things work out with the house. Really. You guys have such a great attitude.
Your kids = Adorable. Seriously - THIRD grade? and Kindergarten?? That must be fun! :)
hey girl. im so happy for you guys. im also so sorry your not feeling well. you know if you need any help im just doown the street.or if you wanna go for a walk oe something
ttyl sam
ps thnks for including us in rebekkas(sp) special day, it was beautiful
I loved this post, It is meant to be. I know it stinks because you are so active but hey girl once this baby comes you are going to have you hands full.
Congrats to your family!!! Ugh, I know all too well how disgusting you are feeling, for some reason, mine's lasting longer than I think it should. My house? Disaster. Last time I made a meal? Honestly don't remember. Cranky? Definantly.
BUT---- it'll be worth it. Right?
CONGRATULATIONS!!! I really enjoyed reading this post. it totally reminded me of all the thoughts and feelings i had this last pregnancy. I dont know what to say to make you feel better about not functioning as your normal self, i know it totally sucks but just think, as soon as the baby comes you will be tired but you can function again and it makes the sleepless nights seem like nothying when you know you can bend down and pick up your house, or at least that is how i felt. congratulations again i am very excited for you!
I totally am feeling for you right now..with the cruddy-ness. It will be over before you know it. 4 is a good number.
I am so excited for you and your family! At least it was half way planned! Jaxon was not planned and I was scared to death! The Lord will bless you for your faithfullness! Remember babies bring blessings! You and my sister are due the same time so it will be fun watching you and thinking she is as far a long as you are! Congrats!
Anissa~
Love and Congratulations to you! I am excited for you and I know that Heavenly Father is watching over you!
Oh Anissa...I am so HAPPY for you guys and know exactly how you feel. I felt that way with every pregnancy...even though I was ELATED to be pregnant...it's so hard mentally, physically, etc. I spent the first 4 months on the couch with all 5 babies...my house was a wreck, and I was a FAT PIG!! But, it is such a small time in your life and the only time that you have a great excuse to be lazy:) I would tell myself everyday after beating myself up about getting nothing accomplished that if all I did that day was grow a baby then WOW, I have accomplished a great task! Tell yourself the same and you will make it through. You have such a beautiful family and you're a great mother and wife...keep up the good work and give yourself a little break:)
Hey Anissa! Congrats on your pregnancy! I'm totally surprised... I thought you were for sure all done! Pregnancy is hard, but it'll get better! Good luck!
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